I do it for love.
Over the past few months I have visited Portland at least twice a month. When I'm not there, I am spending all of my free time either applying for jobs or working on this blog. This is an expensive past time, as I am sure you can imagine. Both with my money and my time, everything is for Megan and being together.
People often ask me why I am willing to change career paths and leave my life here in Arizona, seemingly without a second thought. They ask if I'm scared or nervous and tell me how terrifying it would be for them to take that "risk."
It's simple, five words, just twelve letters: I do it for love.
Career paths can change. I know because I built my current career as an attorney using only ambition, drive, a little stubborn perseverance, and the encouragement of my Mother. I still have all four of those resources (thank you, Mother). Additionally, I now have years of professional experience and perhaps a little more patience.
This is why it does not make me nervous to change career paths: I believe in myself. If I can forge ahead and build a path for myself once, surely I can do it again. Besides, this time I have the love and support of an incredible woman to help me along the way. Careers are something you build and I have the tools to do so.
Love is not something that any person can build. It is a natural phenomenon, an indescribable and metaphysical gift from the universe. I have no idea why or how I got so lucky as to meet Megan. I really have no clue why she returns my love and seems equally enamored with me. These are mysteries I wonder about each day.
What I do know is to follow the path that love is guiding me towards. I feel this deep within me, like my heart is validating its truth. There is no road, no pavement, not even a single sign that someone else has trekked this path before me; it is the great unknown. Still, I move forward. I think, perhaps, this would terrify me if I had to walk the path alone. With each step, however, I feel Megan holding my hand. Each time I look over, she is right by my side (literally, she almost always walks on my right side).
Changing careers and moving doesn't scare me, neither does creating a path through an unknown world. The world may be a mystery, the future a foggy foreground, but the love that Megan and I share is certain, like the North Star guiding our journey.
And really, how can anyone fear or stress life's journey when they have someone by their side through it all?
I do it for love.